maanantai 29. marraskuuta 2010

Alkemisti & elämänvirta


Camin teksti 19.6.2007


Sain juuri luettua Paulo Coelhon Alkemisti kirjan. 
Aika hieno, kuvainnollinen ja kaunis.
Alussa oli kaunista symboliikkaa ja tajusin sen suurimman asian, 
joka kirjasta minulle jäi käteen: 
minä tiedän ja tunnistan elämänvirran, 
minulla on ainakin ajoittain yhteys siihen. 

Kun minulla oli vaikeaa  1½v sitten, niin löysin elämänvirran itsestäni. 
Oli hetkiä jolloin en voinut "luottaa" kehenkään: 
minulla oli paljon ihania tukijoita mutta heidän sanat eivät auttaneet, 
ne eivät osuneet. 

Muistan vieläkin kerran tiukan tilanteen, johon sain jokapuolelta neuvoja.
Muistan kuinka en pystynyt muuta kuin ravistelemaan päätäni
ja huidoin käsillä "menkää pois" (mielessäni).

Menin toiseen huoneeseen makaamaan sängylle. Mieleni oli täysin sekava: 
ajattelin, että makaan tässä kun en muutakaan voi ja jospa se selvittäisi päätäni. 
Suljin silmäni ja kuin ihmeen kautta, parin minuutin päästä,
silmäni ponnahti auki ja tiesin mitä tehdä. 

Siitä lähtien, olen konkreettisesti tiennyt että vastaukset löytyvät minun sisältä.
Minulle se on kosketusta elämänvirtaan. 
Puhun siitä gut feelinginä, tunteena, sydämeni sanoo.
Se on minun totuus.


perjantai 26. marraskuuta 2010

Rakkautta ja rajoja - myös töissä?


Viime vuosina olen kotona yrittänyt toimia "Rajoja & Rakkautta"
periaatteen mukaan lasteni kanssa.
Nyt mietin, että tämä yksinkertainen oppi voisi olla
 hyödyllinen myös työelämässä.

Esimerkiksi:
Jos lapsi/työntekijä ei näe/koe rajoja,
ei tiedä "milloin kolikko tipahtaa kaivon pohjaa",
voi lapselle/työntekijälle tulla paniikki.
Hallinnantunne häviää ja kaikki energia menee
kokonaisuuden hahmottamiseen.
Lapsi/työntekijä tulee levottamaksi koska luulee, että
hänen tehtävä on johtaa vaikka se ei ole hänen tehtävänsä.

Toisaalta:
Näinä epämääräisinä aikoina ei voi tietää mitä seuraavaksi
 lapselle/työntekijälle vastaan tulee.
Ei ole mahdollista antaa yhtä oikeaa vastausta,
pitää usein vain luottaa siihen, että on antanut
lapselleen/työntekijälleen tarpeeksi työkaluja & tervettä järkeä
 toimia tilanteessa parhaalla mahdollisella tavalla.

Jos siis lapsi/työntekijä tietää oman toimintalueensa,
saa toimia sen sisällä oman sydämensä johdattelema,
tuntien olonsa turvalliseksi & tietäen että tuki löytyy tarvittaessa,
tuntien samalla olonsa arvostetuksi ja kunnioitetuksi,
luulen, että näin syntyisi loistavia tuloksia
 & ennenkaikkea onnellisia ihmisiä.


torstai 25. marraskuuta 2010

sunnuntai 21. marraskuuta 2010

Paras puhe, jonka olen ikinä kuullut.



Ohessa Steve Jobsin kuuluisa puhe, jonka hän piti 2005
 Stanfordin yliopiston valmistujaisjuhlissa. 
Puheen joka osa vetoaa minuun aivan valtavasti.
Siksi haluan katsoa sitä tekstinä ja imeä itseeni sen kaikki mahtavat opit. 
 
* * * * * * *
Thank you.
I'm honored to be with you today for your commencement
 from one of the finest universities in the world.
Truth be told, I never graduated from college and
this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation.
 
Today I want to tell you three stories from my life.
 That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.
 
The first story is about connecting the dots.
 
I dropped out of Reed College after the first six months
 but then stayed around as a drop-in for another
eighteen months or so before I really quit.
So why did I drop out?
 
It started before I was born.
My biological mother was a young, unwed graduate student,
and she decided to put me up for adoption.
She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates,
 so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer
 and his wife, except that when I popped out, they decided at
 the last minute that they really wanted a girl.
 So my parents, who were on a waiting list,
got a call in the middle of the night asking,
 "We've got an unexpected baby boy. Do you want him?"
They said, "Of course."
 
 My biological mother found out later that my mother had never
 graduated from college and that my father had never graduated
from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers.
She only relented a few months later when my
parents promised that I would go to college.
 
This was the start in my life.
 And seventeen years later, I did go to college, but I naïvely chose a college
that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents'
 savings were being spent on my college tuition.
 
After six months, I couldn't see the value in it.
 I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life,
 and no idea of how college was going to help me figure it out,
and here I was, spending all the money my parents had saved their entire life.
 
 So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK.
It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back,
 it was one of the best decisions I ever made.
 The minute I dropped out, I could stop taking the required classes
 that didn't interest me and begin dropping in on the
 ones that looked far more interesting.
 
It wasn't all romantic.
 I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms.
 I returned Coke bottles for the five-cent deposits to buy food with,
and I would walk the seven miles across town every Sunday night
 to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple.
I loved it.
 
 And much of what I stumbled into
 by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on.
 
 Let me give you one example.
Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy
 instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster,
 every label on every drawer was beautifully hand-calligraphed.
Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes,
 I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this.
 I learned about serif and sans-serif typefaces,
about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations,
about what makes great typography great.
 
It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way
that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.
 
None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life.
But ten years later when we were designing the first Macintosh computer,
it all came back to me, and we designed it all into the Mac.
 It was the first computer with beautiful typography.
If I had never dropped in on that single course in college,
the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally
spaced fonts, and since Windows just copied the Mac,
 it's likely that no personal computer would have them.
 
If I had never dropped out,
 I would have never dropped in on that calligraphy class and
 personals computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do.
 
Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward
when I was in college, but it was very, very clear looking backwards 10 years later.
 
You can't connect the dots looking forward.
You can only connect them looking backwards,
so you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future.
 
You have to trust in something
- your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever -
because believing that the dots will connect down the road
will give you the confidence to follow your heart,
even when it leads you off the well-worn path,
 and that will make all the difference.
 
My second story is about love and loss.
 
I was lucky. I found what I loved to do early in life.
 Woz and I started Apple in my parents' garage when I was twenty.
 We worked hard and in ten years, Apple had grown from just
the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with
over 4,000 employees.We'd just released our finest creation,
 the Macintosh, a year earlier, and I'd just turned thirty,
 and then I got fired.
 
How can you get fired from a company you started?
Well, as Apple grew, we hired someone who I thought
was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so,
 things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge,
and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our board of directors
 sided with him,and so at thirty, I was out, and very publicly out.
 
 What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone,
 and it was devastating.
 
I really didn't know what to do for a few months.
 I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down,
that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me.
 I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize
for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure and
I even thought about running away from the Valley.
 
 But something slowly began to dawn on me.
 I still loved what I did.
The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit.
 I'd been rejected but I was still in love.
And so I decided to start over.
 
I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple
was the best thing that could have ever happened to me.
The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness
 of being a beginner again, less sure about everything.
 
 It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods in my life.
During the next five years I started a company named NeXT,
 another company named Pixar and fell in love with an
 amazing woman who would become my wife.
Pixar went on to create the world's first computer-animated
 feature film, "Toy Story," and is now the most successful
 animation studio in the world.
 
In a remarkable turn of events,
 Apple bought NeXT and I returned to Apple and the technology
we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance,
 and Lorene and I have a wonderful family together.
 
I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple.
 It was awful-tasting medicine but I guess the patient needed it.
 
Sometimes life's going to hit you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith.
 
 I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was
that I loved what I did.
 You've got to find what you love,
 and that is as true for work as it is for your lovers.
 
 Your work is going to fill a large part of your life,
and the only way to be truly satisfied
 is to do what you believe is great work,
 and the only way to do great work
 is to love what you do.
 
 If you haven't found it yet, keep looking, and don't settle.
 
 As with all matters of the heart,
 you'll know when you find it, and like any great relationship
 it just gets better and better as the years roll on.
 So keep looking. Don't settle.
 
My third story is about death.
 
 When I was 17 I read a quote that went something like
 "If you live each day as if it was your last,
 someday you'll most certainly be right."
 
 It made an impression on me, and since then,
for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror
every morning and asked myself,
 "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do
 what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been
 "no" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.
 
 Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important thing
I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life,
 because almost everything
- all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure -
these things just fall away in the face of death,
 leaving only what is truly important.
 
Remembering that you are going to die
 is the best way I know to
 avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose.
 
You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.
 
About a year ago, I was diagnosed with cancer.
I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning and it clearly showed
a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was.
The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable,
and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months.
 
 My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order,
 which is doctors' code for "prepare to die."
 It means to try and tell your kids everything you thought
 you'd have the next ten years to tell them, in just a few months.
 It means to make sure that everything is buttoned up
 so that it will be as easy as possible for your family.
 It means to say your goodbyes.
 
I lived with that diagnosis all day.
Later that evening I had a biopsy where they stuck an endoscope
down my throat, through my stomach into my intestines,
put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor.
I was sedated but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope, the doctor started crying, because it turned out to
 be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery.
I had the surgery and, thankfully, I am fine now.
 
This was the closest I've been to facing death,
 and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades.
 Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more
certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept.
 
 No one wants to die,
even people who want to go to Heaven don't want to die to get there,
and yet, death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it.
 And that is as it should be, because death is very likely
 the single best invention of life.
 
It's life's change agent; it clears out the old to make way for the new.
Right now, the new is you. But someday, not too long from now,
you will gradually become the old and be cleared away.
Sorry to be so dramatic, but it's quite true.
 
Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life.
Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with
 the results of other people's thinking.  
They somehow already know what you truly want to become.
Everything else is secondary.
When I was young, there was an amazing publication
called The Whole Earth Catalogue,
 which was one of the bibles of my generation.
 
 It was created by a fellow named Stuart Brand
 not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch.
This was in the late Sixties, before personal computers and desktop publishing,
so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and Polaroid cameras. 
It was sort of like Google in paperback form thirty-five
 years before Google came along. 
 
I was idealistic, overflowing with neat tools and great notions.
Stuart and his team put out several issues of the The Whole Earth Catalogue,
 and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue.
 
 It was the mid-Seventies and I was your age.
On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph
 of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself
 hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous.
 Beneath were the words,
"Stay hungry, stay foolish."
 
 It was their farewell message as they signed off. "Stay hungry, stay foolish."
 And I have always wished that for myself, and now,
as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.
 
Stay hungry, stay foolish.
 
Thank you all, very much.

torstai 18. marraskuuta 2010

Aloita aamu keinumalla



Tämä on tullut minulle mieleen kymmeniä kertoja tällä viikolla.

Keinun esikoiseni kanssa koulun keinuissa klo. 8 maanantai aamuna.
Roikotamme päitämme taakse ja katsomme hymyillen toisiamme.
Läppärilaukku nojailee keinun toiseen tolppaan, esikoisen koulureppu toiseen.

Maailmassa olemme vain me kaksi.
Meillä ei ole mihinkään kiire.

Siinä oli jotain todella maagista.
 

tiistai 16. marraskuuta 2010

Elämä ytimessä on riskiä mutta rikasta


Camin slogan, kevät 2009

Elämä ytimessä on riskiä mutta rikasta,
elämä ulkoraiteilla on turvallista mutta tylsää

Miksi riskeerata kaikki nyt kun kaikki on ihan ok?
Eikö näin ole ihan hyvä?
Miksi keikuttaa venettä?

Paulo Coelho: Fear and Passion



We all know fear. But passion makes us fearless.
- Paulo Coelho - 

maanantai 15. marraskuuta 2010

Mitä yrityksissä tapahtuu loistaville ideoille?





Tämä on yksi minun lempikuvistani, johon olen viitannut lukuisia
 kertoja eri keskusteluissani.

Mitä yrityksissä tapahtuu alunperin loistaville ideoille?
Mihin se loistava idea katoaa prosessin aikana?
Minusta siihen yrityksen varman päälle pelaamiseen, yli-analysointiin
 ja ennenkaikkea pelkoon.


lauantai 13. marraskuuta 2010

Aidosti vahva ihminen


“The awareness of our own strength makes us modest”

- Paul Gezanne -

Omien voimien tunteminen tekee vaatimattomaksi.

Sain tekstin ollessani n. 15-vuotias rakkaalta iso-äidiltäni, Mamilta,
tuliaisiksi Lontoosta.

Teksti oli osa pientä kirjaa, jossa oli kuuluisien Kauriiden ajatuksia.
Irrotin sivun ja laitoin sen kiinni peiliini, jossa se katseli minua läpi teinivuosien. Opiskeluaikoina se oli muistitaulullani.
Lappu on edelleen minulla jossain.

Minun Mami eli kuten lauseessa sanotaan ja siihen minäkin pyrin.
Siihen, että tietää oman arvonsa, voimansa ja vahvuutensa
niin hyvin ettei niistä tarvitse tehdä numeroa.



perjantai 12. marraskuuta 2010

Blogin intro: This is me not faking it



Minä en osaa feikata enkä halua sitä oppia.
Se on suurin lahja, jonka olen saanut.
Ajatukset, tunteet, kaikki haluavat tulla minusta ulos
samalla tavalla kuin hengitys.

Ne haluavat antaa ja yhtä paljon saada.
Ne haluavat vastavuoroisuutta, toisen puolen.
Ne tarvitsevat vaihtokauppana puhdasta uutta ilmaa,
uusi perspektiivejä, kulmia.

Onko väärin haluta jakaa?
Onko väärin haluta vastavuoroisuutta?
Onko väärin haluta resonoida toisia ihmisiä vasten?
Lähettää ja vastaanottaa.
Ja antaa kaiken tulla ja valmiina vastaanottamaan mitä vaan.

Olla kaikki värit, jotka sisin on.
Kaikki värit mitä sisin työntää ulos, juuri sellaisina kuin ne ovat.
Kaikki värit - syteen tai saveen.
Miksi se on niin väärin? Ja lapsellista? Ja epä-ammattimaista?

Miksi ei ole hyväksyttävää olla kuin perusvärejä?
Miksi me opimme, että on parempi olla perusväri, turvassa, varmana.
On parempi olla heiluttamatta venettä.
On parempi ottaa varman päälle.

Mutta harvan meistä nimi on varman päälle.
Harva meistä on sisimmissään varman päälle.
Moni meistä on paljon enemmän kuin varman päälle.

Me olemme värien sinfonia, ilotulitus tai kuohuva joki.
Jotkut mielettömissä tummien sävyissä pauhaavia jokia.
Jotkut pirskahtevia värejä ilotulitustaivaalla.

Mitä käy ihmiselle, joka on pauhaava joki mutta yrittää olla ilotulitustaivas?
Miten me olemme niin idiootteja, että sanomme pauhaavalle joelle,
että parempi että nyt vaan vähän feikkaat.
Että se on sinulle parempi.

Miksi emme voi vaan nauttia siitä, että olemme erilaisia?
Miksi emme vaan uskalla olla erilaisia?
Mahtavia, yksilöllisiä, uniikkeja väriyhdistelmiä.

This is me not faking it.
These are my true colors.



 

maanantai 8. marraskuuta 2010

Runo rakkaille, joita ikävöin.



Et ole ikiunessa
Et ole poissa
Olet tuhat tuulta puistikoissa
Olet timantti hankien loistossa
Et jättänyt meitä
Et ole vaiti
Olet lintujen laulu taivaalla
Olet kuiskaus viljapellolla
Olet henkäys minun poskella

 
- tuntematon, minun muokkaama -